There is a Post I need to Write… But not today.

Someday soon I’m going to need to post. It’s going to be a hard post to write, but I’ll need to do it. For me.

It’ll be the post about how I deal with grief.

I’m (sure as Hell) no counsellor. I have no formal advice to give.

But what I am learning is that somewhere inside, along with my other quirks and issues, is still the food addiction.

I don’t see it anymore. I don’t feel it on a daily basis. I was pretty sure it didn’t even exist anymore. It was a fat-girl problem.

But today, when I heard my Grandma is really unwell, it was like an avalanche.

There was numbness. Then an OVERWHELMING desire to eat. A pizza. A whole one. Or maybe a pie. Or icecream, buckets and buckets of it.

Right now, I’m not eating any of that. But the feelings are still there.

I’ll need to write about that.

But not today.

Today I just need to breathe.

lungs

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2 thoughts on “There is a Post I need to Write… But not today.

  1. I’m so sorry. Breathe. One day at a time; be kind to yourself as you process it all and do what you need to do for yourself and the fam. Lean on those around you. xx

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