For the last few months, my entire life has revolved around being ready to compete in September. Everything needed to work around me getting to the gym, eating when I was supposed to, eating WHAT I was supposed to as well as the emotional/mental time I spent worrying about whether I could be ready in time and being mentally ready to stand up on stage in a bikini that is too small to even really be referred to as ‘micro’. I own larger watches than this suit.
But now it’s done.
There is a lot of information on the internet about ‘post-comp blues’. It’s a bit of a thing. And I understand it. Essentially, no matter how many times your coach (if they are a good one!) tells you what will come in the days and weeks after you get off stage – it’s a rude shock. And you might find it hard to deal.
The list for me looks a little like:
- Immediate weight gain (Potentially, a lot of it. It’s been nearly 4kg up from show day for me!)
- Odd uncomfortable fluid retention (For me, I was weirdly fluid-y in spots like my calves and behind my knees!)
- Strange reactions to foods (Itchy rashes and cramps from previously familiar foods. Like peanut m&ms)
- Bowels are um, irregular
- Stomach bloating and discomfort
- Feelings of insatiable hunger and therefore, likely overeating or bingeing
- Feelings of being ‘lost’ or unsure
Honestly, I have experienced all of the above. My weight is up, I have some weird water retention going on and at times I think I am SO HUNGRY I COULD DIE. So I ate all the biscuits. A few times over.
I don’t feel down or worried about it though. For me, I think a lot of the calmness comes from having weighed A LOT more than I do now. I was also well prepared about what would happen and had this escape plan cemented in my head.
It isn’t a matter of ‘snapping out of it’ and not even a case of going back to the way I lived preparing for show. That was never intended to be a long term diet and training path.
My personal challenge for October was to give myself this month to re-establish the balance in my life. I’ll train the way I like to train and eat the way I like to eat (which is a clean but family-friendly non restrictive diet). And most importantly, to spend some time relaxing and being with my family, because that’s what I treasure most.
I’m not disputing that ‘post-comp blues’ is a real thing. I know and love some GORGEOUS girls that are right now going through a tough time re-engaging in a normal life after the tunnel-vision that is preparing to compete.
So be kind to yourself. Find what makes you happy and do more of it.